blessed.

So so blessed to have met every single person in my life. :)

'Memories are good, but sometimes they're exactly what's holding us back, holding us from moving on with life, we should cherish them but not cling on to them. If not we'll only be living in the past.
So, 

let it go and create more beautiful memories instead :) '

well said, you.

fishing at semenyih ; usaha camp 2012

less than three,

jean

:) 

hello abandoned blog.

No one really reads my blog anymore... wait let me rephrase that, no one actually blogs anymore. ( well in my circle of friends at least) so yeap. I decided to come back here to blog and syoik sendiri since no one's gonna read it anyways :) haha!

thanks to a few people ( you know who u are ) that reminded me about my blog, or i should say found out about this piece of art (:P).. kinda made me think back why did i continue blogging at the first place. HAHA.

I'm 18 now and i've grown and learnt so much more. I dont only know more about life, i learnt more about living it. I feel much wiser and i feel much knowledgable. in every sense. One thing thou, as i grow, i fear more. i dont quite know the reason why but i feel like i often fight within myself, i guess it's because things in life contradicts quite alot, from the past to the present, things have changed, and i cant do anything bout it except to consume, learn, absorb, accept and move on. This is like a chain effect, when my surroundings change, i change. peer pressure and all the influential factors starts poking my life bubble and when i dont hold up well, i tend to fall. This could be an excuse to myself and this could also be a lesson learnt.

As we grow, we need to be stonger, MENTALLY especially. the world is not as innocent as u think it is. u'd see a bigger picture of the society, of life. For me to handle these bigger pictures, I gotta learn to be a bigger person.

I personally am not a strong person, i thought i was, but this whole new world thing hit me hard in my face. So, it's either i give up and surrender or i continue fighting. SO TELL ME which idiot would chose to give up? ( yes that's right, if u pick to give up u're an idiot :) ) I have no choice, well actually, i've never allowed 'giving up' as an option in my life, altho im often an idiot at the verge of doing so but NO! NEVER. i will keep my head up high , stay focus and work my way up to my goal.

It's not gonna be easy but i know it's gonna be worth it. 

everything's gonna be fine in the end, if it's not fine, it's not the end. 

have faith and keep smiling :)

singing off,
jean.
;)

long and hairy sticks

oh, they're heavy too ;)

i'm talking about my favorite stick, at my favorite place
OH HELL YEAH!

WHAT?
what are u thinking bout, U SICKO!

BAMBOO!
*crowd goes Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy..*

AND SOOoO, today's trip was fun!
rather tiring,

but it was worth it i guess.
worth the time, and sweat, AND energy, AND CUTS

:)

so same thing, same routine, same time tomorrow.

WOAHHH FUN HOLIDAY!
EXCITING ISNT IT!

:D

hahahhahaha i'm so good at sarcasm.
wait whattt sarcasmm?
i was serious!
*stares*

OKAY BETTER FINISH UP MY FLAG AND GET SOME REST.

buaiz! ;)

DANGER!

HEY! I ISH BACKS!

okay brb i need to pee.

done. so yeah i'm back from that camp i mentioned in the previous post.. it's erm quite fun, considering it's a **e* camp ( HAHA LITERALLY) and the food provided is actually too much. like TOO MUCH. 6 meals a day goodness!

oh right.

and guess what?

what?

I GAINED 2kgs.

blardy hells! :(

i wanna die by just thinking bout it. :O

haha emo nemo dao.


SO, WHAT'S NEXT?!

hahahhaha what do u mean by what's next tch!

chopping bamboo dragging bamboo learn dance buy alatan sew flag buy food buy this buy that

SOLO CAMP!
WOOHOO FUN STUFF YO!

:/
i ish scared.

am actually half way learning my dance and im already sweating :'( i obviously dont enjoy dancing. BOO. :( OH WELL. it's fun cause i dunno what am i doing im just like "dancing"! hahaha. warning, do not laugh when i'm dancing or i'll punch u! GRR!

:D


LETS GET STARTED YO! TMR'S DAY ONE OF CHOPPING BAMBOO DAY! it's gonna be fun hee :D

*JUMPS WITH JOY! but with "tears of joy" on my face :( "
:D

seeyaloves!
<3>

whateves

so tmr i'm gonna go for some cpr course at PLKN jugra, banting.

anddddd....

apparently, 4 people were killed by some lawyer over there. ( info from my parents, of course) you know.. adults... :) YAH. so i hope i'll get back home in peace and also in a piece :D (wah lame)

anywaysss...

I HAVE TWO THINGS TO SAY,


First, is that i realized many people around me are SO FAKE. like they have this great ability in them to hide their true self infront of u. and when they want something from u, they literally transform into another human being that's almost like a stranger to u. Soooo nice and sweet out of the sudden. i feel used. this sucks.


Secondly, is that if u don't know how to please me, seriously, QUIT TRYING. i appreciate your thoughts, but really? is that all u would do? maybe it's just the wrong timing. too bad yr luck is not at yr side at that very second. If u can't help, then just say "sorry, i can't help". Please, i repeat, PLEASE, don't give people blank hopes, or don't crush that person's high hopes on u when at the end of the day, u just suddenly tell them off and say " sorry, i couldn't help".


SERIOUSLY, THAT PISSES ME OFF TO THE MAXIMUM.
i would point my middle finger at u and ask u to screw off!
fine, maybe with a smile on my face. just to make it seem less tense.



okay i'm done pouring. back to packing my bag.
ciaomiao.

frenzy wei!

YAY! two weeks of hell exams is over! there's still 4 more papers tho. chemistry and physics paper 3. and also pjk and sivik!

oh. right.

SCREW YOU SMARTY SQUARE PANTS WHO SAID
" paypah 3 only marhs. don't needa study one lar"
_ /_

*puts on serious face*
every test is a test. you gotta strive for yr best! ohmai! that rhymes! especially when u screwed up big time for yr chemistry paper 1 and also other subject :( IT IS IMPORTANT. GO STUDY UP YR EXPERIMENTS!

and alsoo,
PJK AND SIVIK IS VERY IMPORTANT TOO OKAY!
do you know that! it is very important to know what is yr heartbeat like and how to count yr BMI! or was it BIM :/ and also to know YOUR SCHOOL'S VISI!


hahahahha i totally take that back :)

anywaaysss,
it's also time for me to blog as it is already one month long haha. exams is going to be over and hopefully i'll make my holidays as useful and as productive as possible :\ oamgee solo campp!

i still dunno why i update my blog for. it's not like anyone would read it. -.-
okay bai! will update on wednesday!

x

%^*&#^$!!!

U HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!

apparently, the exam time table given has no mistakes.

i repeat, NO MISTAKES.

which means..

you know what it means?
you know what the buck it means?

IT MEANS THAT WE'LL HAVE TO TAKE ENG (1) and BM (1) AGAIN.

OHMAIGOODNESSGRACIOUS!

i is damn pissed nao.

" wei seriously don't joke lar"

yeah yeah. i hope it's really a joke.
seriously someone please tell me it's false.
i wrote a freaking long essay for bm.
my effort. poof gone :)
naise lar.

i'm crossing my fingers waiting for miracles to happen.
argh. :(

okciao!